Can you suppress grief?

You can try, but you can’t avoid it forever. If you want to begin the healing process, you have to let it surface. If you continue to suppress it, it can have physical impacts on your body.

• Physically: It can cause specific pains such as stiff neck, headaches, backaches, and abdominal discomfort.
• Socially: People may begin to avoid you as they no longer no how to help, or what to say. This can cause loneliness.
• Spiritually: For some people this causes confusion. They begin to no longer believe in God, become angry with him, or lose faith.
• Logic thinking: Memory and concentration can suffer and become disruptive. Irrational thinking and overwhelming emotions can play out such as with extreme sadness or chaos.

Getting better involves sharing your grief reactions with others. This doesn’t necessarily mean replaying all the details, but talking about what you are feeling, today, right now.

Remember:

• Grief has no timeline
• Healthy grief may be chaotic & complicated, it may also bring feelings of discomfort.
• Maybe the best you can do today is to use a distraction that will allow your mind and heart to focus on something else, briefly.
• It’s ok to pamper yourself with treats such as a special meal, fun activities, songs you can sing to, or being outdoors.

 

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Things that are helpful on this journey are comforting things from outdoors & in nature, which at its heart is a response to the loss. My list includes: sunlight, birds, flowers, fresh vegetables, grilling, fresh cut grass or trees, picnics, stars, playing in the rain or water, & sand. These help me with rejuvenation, restoration, and renewal to the soul.  It is a proven fact that being outdoors can help with emotional well-being, recovery & concentration.  It does seem a bit ironic that our culture uses some of those things such as flowers and plants to be a symbolic part of our rituals surrounding death, and then they are some of the very things that then can help us heal. I have heard more recently that grief walking retreats and woodland burials are being incorporated more and more into our cultures. Nature becomes one of our best medicines, no side effects, free for the taking, clean air, & sensory delight.

Nature helps us to keep moving just when we may want to remain still or stuck. Walking can provide a powerful inspiration to keep going when it feels like our world has been destroyed. Nature is a strong internal force, bringing hope of surviving the loss. Walking has also helped me to see that even though my own world was standing still, the outside world was going on.  Walking was like giving my brain a much needed break. The panoramic vistas capture my eyes and draw my focus outward, even if only for 20 or 30 minutes.  It is also very soothing, stress releasing, and I realize it doesn’t have to be so physically grueling or outwardly dramatic to feel therapeutic, but a source of endless delights. It provides you with an enormous, extended family that you can visit any time you wish, an inexhaustible world of friends (of all shapes and sizes) that, in a sense, are wondering where you have been. This week I walk and symbolically say “hello” and tell them why I have been gone so long.

Every decade adds a new host of challenges. Turning 50 recently, is not much different. I  got an application for AARP,  I was also told to get a colonoscopy, my eyes checked, lift weights, update important paperwork, set more realistic goals, and take care of my skin, to name just a few. This will be my blog page which will not be an online journal! Instead it will be a place to express myself and my passions, and perhaps some feelings and thoughts that others may be able to relate to. It can help raise awareness, build resources, garner support, and connect with people who share a piece of my heart.